No.119
Especially since in real life, their behavior towards me didn't change. I saw this as a green light to continue as I was. I had no clue it was hurting them. Scaring them… Of course, it's too late now. Ive thought a lot about what I've done. Reminisced and looked through my memories. I've looked back at the chats. Were there signs? At least through the messages, no. Not really. Why didn't they tell me? Even now, they haven't given an official reason. it just… ended. it was over. one day, best of chums. the next, strangers. a really dehabilitating experience for me, especially as someone who has never had many friends, and especially as close of a friendship as this one was.
No.120
I tried to apologize, but it seemed to fall on deaf ears. I guess there's no incentive for them to be friends with me. Before, they chose to hang out with me because it was fun for them. For both of us. Our friendship was a mutual benefit, albeit heavily favoring me. But now they want nothing to do with me. And so they can turn to their preexisting and extensive social network. of which I used to be a part of as well, thanks to their sponsorship. but, now I have nothing… foe their sake, I guess the best option is just… LE MOVE ON… o algo. but at least I still have a few good friends that don't really care. or know, I guess. idk. I just really wish I had a time machine or something. like, dam. that was so awesome. and what happened was so preventable. do yeah. that's muh heckin story. blogpost over at least until I think of something else to say about it
No.126
what the hell? no one has anything to say? dead shit site
No.127
im sorry for your loss